Wow

The same night I wrote the last post, I responded to the email from my supporters. The very next day, I heard back from them and was "surprised by hope" that they actually were thinking of increasing their level of support! That was certainly a quick affirmation of God's promise! Amazing.

I got my hair done this week.

Hmh??

I was getting my Income Tax Return stuff together last night, excited about getting a refund. Certain that I paid too much tax for my lowly annual income. Well, turns out that I owe money! And it's all because I didn't pay tax on the money I make for my private tutoring. I mean, I could lie and pretend that I didn't actually make that money (don't worry snooping CRA man, I'm just kidding)...It really bothered me. I was really hoping for some extra income. With all the work ya do to even file the return! Went to bed hearing the hymn refrain in my head, "God will take care of you..." and thinking how I'm one of those Canadians who wants its country to take care of its people, so I should suck it up and pay the tax! (I still can't help but think they've got it wrong. I did lots of charitable giving and if you work it out, it's just a minimum wage salary! Aren't I one of the ones the government is supposed to be taking care of?!) Still, I tried to take God's word to heart and agree to trust him [once again] to provide.

This morning, still struggling with that, but doing it. This afternoon, got an email from my longest financial supporters asking for insight into my financial situation because there are other missionaries who are having lots of needs at the moment. The email didn't shock me, because honestly, I've been wondering when it would happen (10 years is a long time to support someone), considering how I've been getting a little salary now from Global. Just thought it was funny how it happened today. After my tax incident. Is God really trying to tell me something? Maybe it's the "thrill" of "living by faith" that I'm supposed to get back into and that's gonna drag me out of my depressed slump. Seriously, if that's the case, what a weird idea. Since instability can actually be super depressing. Do I REALLY need something else depressing in my life?!

Maybe it's a suggestion to not spend some money on my hair, like I've been holding out for (to push back the winter blues).