Wednesday 19 December 2012

Un cuento (A short story)

So just writing that last post made me think of the short story I wrote for one of my Spanish literature courses this term.  I have it in both Spanish and English, but I kind of prefer it in Spanish.  (Although I don't really know how it sounds to a native speaker.  My professor gave me a good mark at least.)  I guess the English wouldn't be so simple if I wrote it in English originally.

The inspiration for this story was from two experiences and two women I met while working with YWAM (one in Vancouver and one in Toronto).  Maybe sometime I will share the real story, but for now, here is my creative version where the two meet (and where I am not exactly a character).
Don't worry, the English translation follows!

¡Qué ejemplo!
     Ella casi no la ve: la mujer encorvada, cubierta de mantas casi parece como un montón de basura apoyándose contra el café. Es una de las noches oscuras y frías de Winnipeg y ella se ha envuelto la cara con una bufanda. Se ensimisma, pensando en el fin de semana pasado cuando alojó en su casa a una joven misionera. Hacía sólo dos meses que había asistido a la iglesia cuando hicieron un anuncio pidiéndole a alguien que proporcionara una habitación por una noche para una oradora invitada, una misionera, así que ofreció su casa. Sabía que no tenía mucho que ofrecer, pero ella podía ofrecerle su cuarto y así ella compartiría con su hija adolescente.
     Ella esperaba que no le importara a la misionera que ella fumaba, que los amigos de su hija fumarían yerba en el balcón, que tenía más gatos de lo que debería. Trataba de hacer algo para cenar, a pesar de que el día sería un día largo de trabajo. Cuando llegó a casa, se dio cuenta que no había tenido tiempo de lavar los platos de ayer, pero no había tiempo para hacerlo ahora ya que había que cocinar algo para la misionera invitada.
      Fue una comida sencilla, la conversación fue ligera y somera. Ella se preguntaba si la misionera estaba satisfecha. Observaba que la misionera parecía incómoda.
      (La misionera era alérgica a los gatos; y tenía una aversión fuerte al desbarajuste. A ella no le molestaba la suciedad en los países en vías de desarrollo, pero ella no podía comprender porque esta mujer canadiense se había ofrecido a hospedarla el fin de semana sin haber limpiado la cama. ¡Qué ejemplo de hospitalidad!)
      Actualmente cuando la mujer hospitalaria camina esas calles de Winnipeg, perdida en estas preocupaciones, se recuerda de algunas palabras que una vez leyó:
      Veía cómo los ricos echaban dinero en el arca de las ofrendas. Vio a una viuda pobre, que echó dos monedas de muy poco valor y dijo:
      — Les aseguro que esta viuda pobre ha echado más que todos los demás. Porque todos los otros echaron como ofrenda lo que les sobraba, mientras que ella, dentro de su necesidad, ha echado todo lo que tenía para vivir.
      La mujer hospitalaria y generosa cruza hacia el montón en la acera, dejar desaparecer su inquietud propia.
      — ¿Puedo invitarle a un café y un sándwich? — pregunta.
      Las dos mujeres se sientan juntas en la acera, se comulgan, comparten historias, comparten sus vidas. Aprenden la una de la otra.
      En el camino de vuelta a su casa desordenada, la mujer hospitalaria reflexiona sobre las palabras de la mujer pobre que llama a las calles, su hogar:
      — Cada mañana me levanto y doy gracias al Creador.
      ¡Qué ejemplo de gratitud!

What an example!
      She almost doesn't see her; the hunched over woman covered in blankets almost looks like a pile of garbage leaning up against the coffee shop. It's one of those dark, cold Winnipeg nights, where she has her own face wrapped up tight in a scarf. She was also lost in her own thoughts, thinking about last weekend when she hosted a young missionary in her home. She had only been going to church for a couple of months when they made an announcement asking for someone to provide a room for one night for a guest speaker missionary so she offered her home. She knew she didn't have much to offer, but she could offer her bedroom and share with her teenage daughter.
      She hoped that the missionary wouldn't mind that she smoked, that her daughter's friends would probably be doing pot on the balcony, that she had more cats than she probably should. She would try to make something for dinner, even though the particular day would be a long one at work. When she got home she realized she hadn't had time to do the dishes from yesterday, but there was no time to do them now—she had to cook something for the missionary guest.
      It was a simple meal, conversation was light and superficial. She wondered if the missionary was happy. She noticed that the missionary seemed uncomfortable.
      (The missionary was allergic to cats; and she had a strong aversion to clutter. Dirt in the developing world didn't bother her, but she couldn't understand why this Canadian woman would offer to put her up for the weekend, but not take the time to clean off the bed! What an example of hospitality?!)
      Now as the woman walks those Winnipeg streets, lost in those worries, she recalls some words she read once:
      Looking up, he saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasury. He also saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coins and said, “I tell you the truth, this poor widow has put in more than all the others. All these others gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her need put in all she had to live on.”
      The hospitable and generous woman is now going over to the pile on the sidewalk, leaving her own preoccupation to disappear. “Can I buy you a coffee and sandwich?” she asks. The two women are now sitting together on the sidewalk, communing, sharing stories, sharing lives. Learning from one another.
       On her way back to her disorderly home, the hospitable woman reflects on the words she heard from the poor woman who calls the streets her home:Every morning I wake up and give thanks to the Creator.
       What an example of gratitude!

"Paying it Forward"

Since writing my last exam yesterday, I am now officially finished my degree!  This morning, while driving Riley to the dog park, I was conversing with God about this debt I now have and my current lack of full-time employment (I am quickly gathering students for private tutoring, so that is at least something and I am encouraged with how smoothly that is going).  I don't feel anxious or worried; God has always been so faithful to provide.  But I do feel some concern (guilt, maybe?) about this debt that seems to keep growing (and will grow even more to be able to do Teacher's College in September).  And of course, it's Christmas time and I'm thinking about how I can be generous from this place I am at.

At the dog park when I arrived, I got chatting a little with another "regular" who I hadn't seen as much lately.  Just some small talk about the dogs (about a potential pending adoption for Riley!), about Christmas, etc.  After he left, another regular came in who I also hadn't seen in awhile and we chatted a little about my upcoming trip to Chile and about Christmas.  He sounded a little sad and unenthused about the season (which I certainly understand) and as I was getting ready to leave, I felt a strong sense that I should extend an invitation to he and his wife to join my family and I for Christmas dinner.  (I am going to bravely host my family this year.) 

This was sort of interesting because, just last night, my sister-in-law was asking me if she could invite a couple who are new to Canada and who don't really know Christmas celebration traditions.  I didn't jump on the idea and thought that we should check first if our parents would be ok with extending the invitation.  I think too, I was also thinking about how I had just said that my gifts to my family members this year would be the meal and I had that panic thought of, 'Oh more people?!  How can I afford that?!'  I honestly was caught up in these two, sort of selfish I guess, thoughts.

So here I am today, encouraging this retired man and his wife to come over, giving him my number, and not caring about these things.

I walked back to the car with Riley and on my windshield was an envelope.  Capital One.  Strange, are they soliciting people at the dog park?  Then I realized it wasn't sealed.  Inside was a note, from the first "regular" who had left before, that read, "Just paying it forward, this month you seem deserving.  Have a Merry Christmas"  And there was $25 in the envelope.  Wow.

I knew two things for sure.  God is still looking out for my needs (and he can use anyone to bless me).  And it was the right thing to extend hospitality to that older man (and in turn, for my sister-in-law, to the other couple).  I ran back to the dog park and asked the man for their number, so that I could make sure to call and remind them of the invitation.  I still need to call my sis-in-law back.

Thursday 6 December 2012

Longing


As a child struggles to sleep on the eve of Christmas
While oppressed Israel lives for the Messiah's birth

As a family rounds the finish line of the third trimester
While a couple hopes to just make it past the first

As a groom looks for his bride to walk the aisle toward him
While a woman still dreams of ever one day being a bride

A world waits with expectant hope
While a world clings to promises, longing.

Tuesday 27 November 2012

Little thanksgivings

There were lots of things to smile at today.  Lots to whisper thanks over.  The buses came just as I approached the stops.  This morning's test was hard, but I finished it feeling satisfied and pleased over the realization that I actually had learned things (yay Spanish vocabulary, grammar and literary movements).  Had a nice, easy-going, social break between classes--didn't need to cram in another thing to read.  Class lectures were light and enjoyable; got let out early.  Had a test to make up after having been sick last week and the prof just let me take it home!  Had time to get some groceries.  (Yes, that is seriously something to be thankful for.  Empty fridge.)  Mayonnaise and peanut butter were on sale!!  (I'd been waiting for awhile.)  Came home to a yummy cornish hen perfectly cooked in sage and wine in the crockpot.  Booked reward flights to Buenos Aires and Santiago for a spontaneous mid-winter vacation with family!

Tuesday 6 November 2012

Insights from Dog Walking - crosspost

So, as promised, here is the blog submission to the Firebowl that I wrote recently.  There's my version of a song too--the song most "on repeat" these days.

Tuesday 23 October 2012

Today's soundtrack

Well obviously I have seriously neglected this blog this year!  I see here that I promised to post photos of my Alberta trip in the spring, so yes, I should do that....

I wrote a little reflection for the The Firebowl community blog on the weekend (stay tuned) on the topic of "letting go"--apparently I am a little more inspired lately.  Well, I certainly am making a lot more time to listen.

Those who know me well, know that music has always been an important medium of expression for me.  Lately there's been a sort of dialogue going on between God and I through music, a sort of soundtrack to today.  I'm discovering songs and they're really reaching into me.  (One of them I recorded for the Firebowl blog entry...)  I also love to share music, so...here you go.  (Mostly courtesy of YouTube.)  Also, once again I highly recommend Under the Radar, whose podcasts are so great and have introduced me to a lot of great music.)

"Free"
"...My strength alone will never be enough, but Your arms keep lifting me up.  You tell me I've been made free.  You give me everything I need to walk in my dreams..."
"Steady My Heart"
"...You're here, You're real, I know I can trust You...I'm not gonna worry, I know that You've got me right inside the palm of Your hand..."
"Pour Out"
"...Your words are a lamp unto my feet when I walk down these dark and lonely streets.  You are all I need."
"Called Me Higher"
"I could hold on to who I am and never let You change me from the inside...I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home, never let these walls down.  But You have called me higher, You have called me deeper and I will go where You lead me, Lord."
"All the Way My Saviour Leads Me"
"...Can I doubt His faithful mercies?
Who through life has been my guide
Heavenly peace, divinest comfort
Ere by faith in Him to dwell
For I know whate'er fall me
Jesus doeth all things well."
"I Will Trust You"
"I know Your heart is good, Your love is strong, Your plans for me are better than my own and I trust You."
"To Those Who Wait"
"You say You’re good to those who wait...You can do more in my waiting than in my doing I could do..."
"Dawn to Dusk"
"Tomorrow's freedom is today's surrender..."

And ANOTHER one from All Sons and Daughters...my current alarm clock song...
"Wake Up"
"Here we stand, our hearts are Yours.  Not our will, but Yours be done."

Friday 11 May 2012

Nudgings and choices in faith

This post is just a link to my contribution at the Firebowl communal blog.  It is indeed kind of neat how, being asked to reflect on a topic (last month, "Joy") and reading others' reflections can serve and minister to my own heart.  If you haven't already, take a read.

(Expect some awe-inspiring photos to be posted soon!  Just got back from six days in Alberta!)